Friends...

I find become sparse as one gets older and wiser. At least that has been my experience. I'm always good enough when you need a shoulder to cry on or need some uplifting encouragement or inspirational words, but I'm always, always left wondering where the fuck these so-called friends are when I need them. A couple of friendships have, apparently not surprisingly, bit the dust and while it initially upset me and frustrated/pissed me off, now looking back and having some time to reflect, I just really don't give a fuck. Why is it tht in friendships that I most often invest more energy then is reciprocated? It's just fucking disappointing, that's all. 

And least of all this is prime example why women just downright suck. Or most I should say. 

I can't control what every person says or does, only myself, even though at times that would be nice.