Baxter's 7th Birthday

It's my sweet Baxter's 7th birthday today :) I can't believe how quickly time flies!! 

Easter Long Weekend!

I had a friend come down for a visit on Thursday night, which was nice. Friday morning we went up White Feather and Heronview. Of course the highlight of the road trip was seeing all of Lori's, her beloved four Leonbergers…

Below is Kramer, 185 lbs of fur and love :).  The second Leo is Emma getting in on some of the love. She's one of his daughter's I believe. 

 

Later Friday night we went to my moms for Easter dinner, which was delish! Kelly stayed for dinner then headed back home to the 'Shwa. 

 

Saturday morning I went to the gym (duh! Lol these days I'm at the gym 7 days a week if I can) and then I came home and we went down to the All About Pet Show near the airport.  I didn't take too many pictures because I was too busy gawking at the animals or petting them.  If Jeff lost me, he didn't have to look out to find me but rather down because I was often on the floor petting this dog or that dog. 

 

Isn't this Persian adorable?  He was just a baby, if I recall his owner said he was just 9 months old but glorious.  :)

I'm not a fan of snakes but took some reptile pictures nevertheless.  Here's a rattle snake and a tarantula.

Cute little Chi's

Some baby goats and a young cow (she was super soft)

This is what I look like in the morning lol  Here's an alpaca. 

 

Got home on Saturday and took the kids for a nice long walk.  This walk put Charlie on his ass for two days.  Poor boy looked wrecked.  Maybe it was too much?  Who knows.  But he's alright. :) 

My massive quads and day 20 of #yogatothecore - Tittibhasana or firefly pose.

And some random ducks trolling down the street on Monday morning lol

Open letter and my weekend

I feel like my heart is breaking and there isn't a god damn thing I can do about it. No matter what I say, what I do, or how long, I'm going to pay the rest of my life for my past mistakes and short comings. I never said I was perfect, I've been so open and raw and vulnerable to the real me, the real person beneath it all...  but I just feel like I'm never going to be the person you want me to be. I will never be this perfect person you so seemingly are trying to find within me... 

Twelve years ago I opened my heart when I shut everyone and everything out. I broke my walls down to my vulnerability.... And now because you feel justified and righteous, I will forever be trying to apologize and make it up to you for being a monster. I can't keep saying I'm sorry for the rest of my life when it's more than just me. Own your shit, let shit go. Stop throwing everything in my face and let it GO. Stop holding everything over my head as ammunition to justify how you feel. I'm trying so hard to be a better, more caring, honest and open person but Im not the one that can make you happy. YOU are the creator of your own happiness... 

I opened my heart and told you I couldn't have my heart broken any more....and my heart is breaking because we're falling apart and it's up to me to bandaid it back together. I never mattered to anyone before you and it breaks me into a million pieces when you tell me you've been unhappy for years... And yet, I'm still here.... Because I love you and I just can't walk away. :( 

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Not having a great last 36 hours. Had a amazing breaking with our good friend Dina while watching the Canada vs.  Sweden hockey game this morning. Jeff was supposed to go to a match with his dad and brother but bailed on them last minute... This afternoon I met up with some old work friends from one of my first jobs back when I was 15. Nice to see the girls and it's so awesome that after all these ears we still get together to catch up. <3 

Goodnight. 

Well that was truly a nice, relaxing long weekend....

So I last wrote on Friday after I got home from work that evening.  That evening, I made a chicken stir fry and then afterwards I took the dogs down to Dina's and vented to her for a couple of hours.  It was actually a nice evening with her.  Upon going back up to our condo at around midnight, I ended up talking to J til about 2 a.m.  I ended up waking up at 8 am but then I guess I fell back asleep and I woke up again at 10 am to my phone ringing.  It was my mom checking in to say that she was coming over to get me and the dogs so that we could go out to White Feather and Heronview Raw and Natural.  Brian drove my mom and I and we were out for maybe 5 hours all said and doine (since Jeff had abandoned ship on Friday to go get some space up north for a few days at his parents, which I understood and respected once I was done with being upset and miffed).  My friend Kelly met up with us for lunch and we walked around for a bit buying a few items along the way.  Afterwards, Kelly was going to meet a friend for dinner (and then coming up to our place late to stay the rest of the weekend) and Mom and Brian and I went to Heronview, where they picked up dog food and I found my man Kramer, a 185 lb Leonberger and his daughter and another female and her daughter. So FOUR big beasts and I was in heaven.  I ended up getting the dogs a stuffless stuffie toy since they love those so much and I also got some Buffalo beef jerkey looking stuff for them as a treat too. 

Kelly ended up coming over around midnight Saturday night and we ended up talking in bed until 2 am.

 Look at these two hambergers. LOL What a life!

 

And I just LOVE this. Found this on Instagram over the weekend :)

And here's Miss Kelly with Charlie and Baxter both.  Charlie was all over her like a wet noodle, he just wouldn't leave her alone at all this past weekend.  Baxter warmed up to her a bit but she's certainly not Mom aka Me.  We spent Sunday morning doing her laundry and watching crap on tv.  We then went to get some groceries and not long after that, Jeff was home.  I was under the impression he was still up north but he ended up surprising me and coming home early, around 3:30ish.  We didn't do too much the rest of the day except chat and watch the boob tube and the Olympics.  We all fell asleep watching the Wolf of Wall Street (we'd seen it twice already and it was Kelly's first time watching it) and then shortly after I woke up and told Kelly lets go to bed (Jeff was sleeping on the couch Sunday night and Kelly and I in our bedroom). 

Woke up relatively early, made breakfast while Kelly was in the shower and she ended up leaving our place around 10:30/11 am to go meet her ex-husband so she could pick up her son and take him to a Hockey Day.  Monday was Family Day so it was a nice long weekend, to say the least.  The next long weekend is at Easter in April, which seems an awfully long time away.  :-/  Kelly will be back in 3 weeks to spend the weekend with me which I'm excited about.  Love that girl.  And I know the dogs, particularly Charlie will be happy about that.  He just adores her :)

And then this morning... Poor dogs, this is how I left them when leaving for work at 6 am.  LOL 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Friday, where the hell have you been all my life?  I've been waiting for you all week.  And the following is the ever so appropriate meme I found last week.

This past Wednesday, the children went to my mom's house, aka Nana's and this is the aftermath:

Baxter IS sleeping here, just with his eyes open.  Typically when he's exhausted, he'll sleep with his eyes opened and you can see the whites of his eyes rolling into the back of his head.
 

And this is Kina, a Husky that I'm caring for a week.  I met her last year when times were tough for me and she just melted my soul. I love her to pieces

 

LOL