About Me in 50 Questions

• I got this from Lindsay at http://anteela.blogspot.ca and thought I would post it as well.....
• 1. What's your favorite candle scent?  Vanilla, white sage, 
• 2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister? No bloody clue
• 3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother? Bradley Cooper
• 4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married? I got married when I was 25
• 5. Do you know a hoarder? Not extreme but sort of 
• 6. Can you do a split? Yes, not middle splits though
• 7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike? I have pictures of riding a tricycle before my dad died, so very young, 2 maybe?
• 8. How many oceans have you swam in? One, maybe the pacific too but I don't think so
• 9. How many countries have you been to?  Gosh between 15-20 I'm going to guess
• 10. Is anyone in your family in the army? Grandfather was 
• 11. What would you name your daughter if you had one? Sore subject, next.
• 12. What would you name your son if you had one? Next.
• 13. What's the worst grade you got on a test? My entire french section failed Math in grade 11 when we were switched from French to English and went through about 4 subs because our initial teacher adopted a baby.
• 14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child? 90210.
• 15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight? I haven't a clue
• 16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series? Nope
• 17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent? This is easy, Brit. LOL
• 18. Did your mother go to college? Nope. 
• 19. Are your grandparents still married? Actually, they're all dead. My mom's dad passed away before I was born so I never met him.
• 20. Have you ever taken karate lessons? I took judo. 
• 21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is? who doesn't?
• 22. What's the first amusement park you've been to? Disney in Florida.
• 23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in? I'm fluent in French and English.  I cant understand most and speak a little of spanish. TINY bit of German.  Learning Arabic or Russian would be pretty cool but difficult I think. 
• 24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray? gray.
• 25. Is your father bald? my step father is semi
• 26. Do you know triplets? Nope.
• 27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook? I've never seen the Notebook. So Titanic it is. 
• 28. Have you ever had Indian food? Yep, it's good.
• 29. What's the name of your favorite restaurant? Ruth Chris's or a random cafe in Paris or Amsterdam. 
• 30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden? Sure but not in ages, they don't exist around here anymore.
• 31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ's, etc.)? Costco
• 32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?...I have no idea lol
• 33. If you have a nickname, what is it? Lindz,  Leslie believe it or not.
• 34. Who's your favorite person in the world? The one that I'm pushing away
• 35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs? Somewhere with space and not a neighbour right two feet next door, so rural.
• 36. Can you whistle? Sure but not well? lol.
• 37. Do you sleep with a nightlight? No.
• 38. Do you eat breakfast every morning? Yes.
• 39. Do you take any pills or medication daily? Sure do. Multi-vitamins, Vitamin D, calcium, vitamin E.
• 40. What medical conditions do you have? Being a crazy pants from time to time? Um, crazy low vitamin D levels, stupid food allergies.
• 41. How many times have you been to the hospital?  Um, lets see 3 or 4, been admitted. Visits, many many times visiting the hospital for other people throughout the years.
• 42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo? Yep
• 43. Where do you buy your jeans? AE, I have one pair of Guess, then the rest are Silvers or Mavi's.. 
• 44. What's the last compliment you got? That I've got the prettiest eyes, maybe, I can't recall. That's sad..
• 45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? Only the really weird, or fucked up ones, never usually any happy dreams.
• 46. What flavor tea do you enjoy? Most teas I love. 
• 47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own? God, lots. Under 50?
• 48. What religion will you raise your children to practice? Science, or just being spiritual 
• 49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn't real? Can't recall
• 50. Why do you have a tumblr? Nopers.

What started off as a nice weekend ended in disaster.. Many, many hurtful things have been thrown out there, many of them which can't be taken back or forgotten.  I don't know which was is up or down right now but I'm barely treading above water.. I don't know how we ever got to this place..We both have now said that getting married was probably the stupidest idea... He wanted to make my mom happy with marrying her only child.  For us, it's only been down hill since then.  So many people have said that while I've had so many accomplishments in 2012, I've changed.  I've changed, he's changed, everything has changed.  It's like we're two strangers passing eachother in the night.  I feel completely off the rails and I nearly checked myself into the hospital last night.  I can't take this heart, this pain... This.  This is literally killing me inside.

I've let so many people down, but most of all myself.  I don't know how to fix it anymore.  I'm such a disappointment.

Time will tell, won't it.....