Monday, January 17, 2011

According to the news, today is supposed to be the most depressing day of the entire year.....I wonder why today.  Why today and not December 21st, on the shortest day of sunlight of the year?  That would be my pick, that's just me though.

So I think I have to make a better promise (to myself) to write a bit more, even if it's silly/stupid/wacky...at least I'm airing out the shit that goes on in my head etc.  Not worry about hurting anyone else's feelings, this is MY blog.

Jeff and I went snowshoeing yesterday for a couple of hours.. holy what a good work out.  At few times and I thought that I was going to die going up a few steep inclines.  LOL no that's just the smoker's lungs.  Totally something I have to give up eventually.

This isn't something that I'm entirely verbal about but here goes.  Eventually, if I ever decide to have a baby, smoking will definitely have to cease.  I'm not sure where I am on this though.  As I've gotten old, I think I would like to have one perhaps, but at the same time, I don't want a kid to change us, I want us to continue to be free spirits, fun loving and adventurous.  Everything we do - camping, travelling, sports, whatever, I want to include a child in that equation.  Part of me wonders if that'll ever happen.... It's not something that Jeff talks about and getting him to open up about it just doesn't happen.  I'm not sure what to think.  Part of me thinks he's scared, part of me knows that he knows kids change things...I just don't know if that's something he wants...When it is brought up, jokes are made and I'm not sure what to think.  I guess I want a baby because I'm an only child, I've always adored caring for people, I want to give my mom a little one to dote on and appreciate while she's here with us.. Of course, not all the "right" reasons to have a baby but reasons nonetheless....More on that some other time.

Tonight, is swimming.  We're doing our open water certification this year (finally!!) and then doing our test dives down in Barbados while were down there in May for two weeks.  Cannot wait.

Boys are doing spectacularly.  Baxter is now 3, as of Saturday, January 15th, he turned 3.  Out of the terrible two's (jokes) and on to three's.  Which means, Charlie is almost 4...He actually turns 4 just 2 days before we return from Barbados :(  We'll celebrate when we get back.

Anyways, that's all for now.  To think of more things to write about.

Night :)

P.S.  Last picture is of Tarra and Bella, at Hohenwald Elephant Sanctuary in Hohenwald, Tennessee.  :)w