Monday, February 27, 2012

So what is new?  Yesterday it was a beautiful day out so I decided that it might be nice to get the dogs out and about at the dog park.  So I made breakfast and then went out and got Bruce.  Came back to our place for abit then headed out to Bradford so the pups could have a romp at the park in the snow.  Dina called and said she'd meet us there because she said she felt like a bad parent for having hurt her back and neglecting Lily a bit.  Well the boys had a blast running around like little idiots to the heart's content.  Charlie had a discussion with a westie/bichon mix.  They were all about telling the other one off.  It was pretty funny.  Then afterwards, we went out to Walmart and then back to our place for the afternoon.  The boys slept much of the rest of the day away.  I made this yummy slow cooker pot roast with veggies and some butter/garlic/and spices mix into potatoes.

This coming Saturday Jeff completes his day 1 of 2 for his restricted and unrestricted firearms license.  I get a day to myself with the boys which means I'll be watching the boob tube and a bunch of shit that Jeff doesn't like on TV.  We also get rid of cable next Wednesday or Thursday.  We'll be saving a mad amount of money per year and we're getting a new internet connection with unlimited data!!!!!  So we'll be downloading pretty much everything or watching it streaming.  Woo.  Not the same but it won't kill us.  Plus it'll be nice to be sit around, talk, go out, read, surf the internet, whatever.  It'll be good.  We'll be saving a lot this year, which is nice but paying off debt will be the ultimate.  Then we'll have nothing looming over our heads.  Once that's done, then I'll be doing my yoga teacher training sometime next year or 2014.  And then we'll have a good chunk saved for Kenya when we're going there in 2014.  Exciting times.  Not sure what we're doing this summer but I doubt we'll be going to Cozumel now.  We might even get certified doing advanced up here, ie in cold ass water.  Whatever I can suck it up.  Or try.  I really want to go out to Tobermory and see for myself just how clear the viz is. 

Looking forward to doing some camping as well this year.  I think this will be the year where we stay around Ontario and find things to do.  Which is just as well.

Anyways gotta go.  Peace! <3

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Really just not feeling it lately.  It started when I got sick at the beginning of February, like voice changing, sore throat, sounding like Aunt Thelma and blowing rediculous amounts of crap out of my face.  It's been good times and I'm still not 100% almost 2 weeks later now.  I'm still blowing my face off.  I should acquire some shares in Kleenex.  My poor nose is hurt.  I don't know what it is about the male race but when you guys out there get sick, look out.  The world has come to a momentary halt.  But if a woman gets sick, oh no, she still has to tidy up, still has to go get groceries, still has to clean the toilet because you men are filthy, and still had to do laundry.  All while feeling like a scrumptious bag of shit.  Never am I asked, oh how was your day or are you feeling any better.  Instead I get grief and anger and jealousy because I'm home and you're NOT.  WTF?  Pardon me for having PAID sick days that I am entitled to use, for you know when I get sick.  So I was kind of looking forward to this past weekend and having the place to myself (me and the dogs).  Jeff went up north for his annual dog sled weekend and sure enough, he wasn't a happy camper at all, bickering with his brother all weekend long and just generally not wanting to be there.  But I had to sit and listen to him bitch, grumble and chew.  Fine, whatever.  But when you come home like that in a foul mood, sure I get your tired and sore, but seriously, can't you just be HAPPY to be home and that your dreadful weekend is over?  No, you must continue bitching?  I'm tired of being a punching bag when all I try to do is care about people and am concerned how they're feeling.  I'm trying my very best and hardest to change my ways, be more calm and on the defensive, but how can you be expected to change when shit around just stays the same?  I feel like he can be so toxic sometimes and really, freaking out about the littlest things in the world are a waste of time. 

I don't know where I'm going with this but I'm frustrated.  Frustrated that even when I voice my own thoughts or opinions in how I feel, they get dismissed or fluffed off with an explanation.  Or a competition, "yeah, well you do/say/act/ ______".  I think its just unfair to want someone to change and better themself when you're doing nothing to better yourself.  Getting angry at me over stupid shit isn't going to solve any problems.

I hope within the next few years, say within the next ten years, I'm going to do my yoga teacher training and then I'm going to try to get a part time job and then after I get some experience and hours put in, I may try to do this professionally as a career.  Of course, that would mean teaching a shit ton of classes a week but whatever, if it's something you enjoy, why the hell not?

And so today is Valentines Day.  Do you really think I give a fuck?  Not at all.  I'm preparing a nice meal at home but beyond that, fuck it.  I'm tired of always being the one that puts forth the energy or effort...........................

On a much happier, lighter note
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