Weekend Recap

So this past weekend was my weekend to pet sit and Jeff was out of town until Saturday evening up north helping out with a gun show up in Sunridge with his gun club.  Meanwhile, on Friday after work, I walked over to my mom's place so that I could borrow her car until Jeff got back Saturday night.  Friday night was pretty low key as I only had one visit.  Saturday morning the dogs tried to rouse me at the ass crack of dawn, which was very much unappreciated.  I told them to get the hell back to bed.  See, they're used to waking up early Monday to Friday and having their breakfast at 6 am.  Well my goodness, the whining and crying, you'd think that I haven't fed them in WEEKS!  Poor things are just so hard done by.  I dragged my ass out of bed eventually and then went about my day visiting various cats and dogs.  Jeff got home somewhere around & I think and I finished my evening around 7:30 so we bummed around for a bit before heading out to grab a bite to eat and meet up with some friends to see a friend's band play.  Needless to say, I was zonked right out and we didn't stay long because I just couldn't keep my eyes open.  I needed toothpicks.  And we all know how I'm damn near a narcoleptic... LOL

Sunday was a bit easier on the schedule.  Had a friend over for dinner, Jeff went geocaching for a bit with him before that.

Ugh you know what I'm doing?  As quickly as possible, running down my weekend and giving very brief, fleeting details, which is annoying but I see that as something I do when I'm in a rush.  UGH!  I have to get some topics organized instead of just running down my day planner-like.

I'll let the pictures speak for themselves.  I promise, tomorrow I'll be better. :)

 

 

 

Looking tired lol
 



Tuesday Musings

So we've recently started being more health conscious of what we're eating and when I say we, I've got Jeff on board.  Now that I've been given the all-clear from the allergist that I can eat raw fruit now (with the exception of grapes - hey, I can eat most fruit so not eating grapes is just fine by me..), we've been eating more fruit, being more conscious of not eating too many carbs, or foods that are organic or gluten-free.  We've also started going hiking to get some exercise in and I've committed to rollerblading this summer, I mean, I might as well, I bought these new blades maybe 3 years ago and haven't worn them once.  Not once.  How pathetic.  So I'm going to do that while Jeff takes up biking again.  I told him that he should be biking every day and he'll start seeing some changes.

Meanwhile, we're back at the home front - my mom came back from Cuba yesterday afternoon.  The boys passed right the fuck out as soon as we got home.  I swear you couldn't have squeezed their eyes shut any tighter.  So they'll be write offs for a week.  They need a bath, having rolled in the grass at moms and digging in dirt, but I'll let them catch up on a few days rest.  Poor things, such a rough life being a Bichon at our house.

I literally can't get over how well Jeff Bauman is recovering after being all over the news last week following the Boston marathon bombing.  He's unofficially become the poster "child" for that tragic event.  It's really amazing that more people didn't die than did but still, the injuries are catastrophic.

Well.... on a sobering note..

Out geocaching with my man

This Canada Goose must be sitting on a nest of eggs for the wifey; he hasn't moved in a week that I've seen.

Life lately...

This week, Jeff and I are house/dog sitting at my mom's while she's in Cuba until next Monday.  Nothing too eventful going on in my life this week other than an entourage of Bichons, but thats okay because I don't mind - they're cute :)

New polish

LMAO

Baxter blowing me kisses

 

Daddy getting some kisses

Brotherly love :)

The one who looks like he has no spine is Charlie.  My sucky pants :)

 

TGIF

One of my favourite songs at the moment happens to be Rhianna's "Stay", it's one of those songs that speaks out to me. 

Ohhh the reason I hold on,
Ohhh cause I need this hole gone,
Funny you're the broken one but i'm the only one who needed saving,
Cause when you never see the lights it's hard to know which one of us is caving.

 

I feel like for far too long I've had this hole, this emptiness that needed filling.  I feel like my entire life I've had this emptiness inside that I can't explain.  I've been trying to find my way, my voice, if you will, for years and somewhere in the last 11 years I found it.  Only, now I have this giant mouth that is incapable (not incapable, but I guess I don't try to stifle it) to stay shut and my mouth tends to get me into trouble.  I have no censor and I think I need to back off and stop being pushy and expecting people to change their views to be more like mine, or to be sympathetic to things that bother me and that have cause.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that everyone is different and has different ways of dealing or coping with shit.  I can't live anyone else's life for them, I can't push my views onto other people, I am only responsible for myself and my actions.  And I need to be more accountable to my actions and the words that come out of my mouth and how I make people feel.  I feel like since I was little, I've always tried to accomodate people, to please people and as the years passed, I put upon myself this perfectionist type attitude, that if something wasn't done to this high standard that I've set for MYSELF, that I was a failure.  I'm an all or nothing kinda gal, nothing in the middle of the road or half assed.  I project A LOT of this shit onto myself.  I set myself up for failure because in my stupid mind I have these high expectations and sometimes I assume something is going to go one way and it doesn't and the world comes crashing down.

 

Yesterday, after bawling my eyes out for most of the evening from 5 pm to 11 pm, I've been told before, but it surprises me every time I hear it again - I hurt my best friend all the time.  I hurt him because I can't even be bothered to consider how he feels about anything or show him any sort of affection to show him that I care and he matters.  Here I thought I was this amazing, good person... but I'm not.  I need to hear validation and compliments and things like that because MY self esteem is poor.  I need to feel accepted, that I'm good enough... Because I feel like I'm never going to be good enough.  Yes, something that I (capitalize I!!) need to hear.  I need to hear that I'm important.  But right now, my wants and needs aren't important.  I have to fix 2 years worth of hurting my husband because I'm a piece of shit.  I hate myself for that and making him feel like he does.  Why do I hurt the one person that loves me to the moon, that uplifts me and supports me?  Why do we hurt the ones we love? 

 

My head feels the size of Jupiter today and my eyes look horrible, but I'm going to the gym shortly to work some of this shit out.  Have a great weekend.  Here's to a good one and a better next week.

 

xo

Sometimes..

I feel like my mom is my only friend in the world and she truly accepts me no matter what, the good, the bad, the not so pretty.. Everything.... Sigh.....

It's 4 days late but whatev! My last weekend's adventures ...

Well, I figure it was about time that I wrote about the Easter Long Weekend.  Man, though, these pictures have been a bitch trying to move and reorganize.  I was off on Friday for the long weekend, but it wasn't a relaxing weekend of any kind for me.  I was working my petsitting jobbie and that meant that I spent most of the weekend not at home, but rather doing house calls and in the car.  It was a crazy busy weekend!!  Something like 40 visits I did from Thursday night to Sunday night.  And I took the day off Monday to spend it with Jeff but also knowing that I'd be tanked from the weekend.  So I did just that.  Did nothing on Monday.  Jeff was off because his normal Friday off was the Stat holiday so they gave him the Monday.  We went over to my mom's for Easter Dinner, which was nice, and the boys loved seeing my mom, as usual.  :)

 

And then Tuesday, he was going in for jury selection.  Turns out after he sat there for about 3 hours, it was for this sexual assault case, some el creepo Jeff said he looked like.  For that trial, they had alrady chosen 7 of 12 so they almost had a full panel, but he was dismissed thank GOD.  Not only does it pay horribly, he also said that due to financial reasons and personal reasons he didn't think he could sit in on the trial. AKA because of me.  I don't blame him.  I don't remember the trial from over 25 years ago either, mind you I was so little but I also think part of my brain is a blur and prevented me from remembering what went on back in those days.  Which is just as well because I have a very visual mind and I still have the ocasional flashback.  Anyways, moving along, he was back home by like 12:30 and that was that.

 

This week has been good at the gym.  Tuesday I did some cardio and a core class.  Yesterday I did a body combat class.  Today I'm going to do a power yoga class.  And tomorrow will either be a Body Pump class or Combat class again.

 

Below are just a few of the animals that I looked after last weekend.  Some regulars and some new ones.  I also got to a client's house on Sunday and noticed she was home (most people are either away on vacation, away for the weekend or at work, so I rarely actually meet pet parents) and she said that she knew she was home early but she waited around because she knows I like her Greyhound, Jagger, and she wanted to take me out to a farmer's field close by and take him off leash running.  I shit you not it was like watching a Cheetah run.  Man this dog could run and around and around... To the point that he'll hurt himself if he isn't careful.  You have to keep them moving after they run and run cold water over their muscles just like you would a horse... But the smile on this dogs face was priceless.  It was something beautiful and I'm so glad that she took me out to watch him run.  It was great.

 

This weekend I have a feeling I'm going to drag Jeff for some hiking or perhaps even downtown to do some walking around and have a nice lunch at Fresh.  :)  Really looking forward to this weekend.  Peace homies!! xoxo

 

 

 

Are these not the cutest stumpy legs you've ever seen in your life?  And she has these massive paws on her. 

She totally has the sad face mastered, eh?

 







Uber friendly Chinchilla named, wait for it, Chinchi lol