TGIF

So the week has been alright, yesterday was definitely better, although things are always tense when we're at my mom's because J gets so mad that we have to look after the dogs when there's another human being in the house - my Aunt, who's completely incompetent.. UGH.  I get it, but it is what it is, there's no sense in stressing about something you know is a sore soft.  It's not going to change, it just is what it is.

Here's some pictures of the week from Wednesday and yesterday....

The night we arrived.. 3 of 4 are trying to all simultaneously sit on him. :)

Baxter and Daddy

Both my kids sleeping on one another...

Cuddle bums!

Delilah and Blurry Quincey yesterday morning before I went to work.

Annnnd.... last night just before I got into bed.. :)

I'm heading off to the gym shortly to do an abs class, along with a Combat class.  Danielle and I are so dedicated. We go to the gym every single day.  2-4 days of Spinning, One day of Abs and Body Combat and Yoga in between it all.  I'm also going to Danielle's yoga class tonight at 5:40 as soon as I get in town (another Danielle), her classes are seriously the best, most delicious classes.  :)  Afterwards, heading home for some dinner and I think Bruce said he'd come by later.  I suspect Greg will come by at some point as well....  Tomorrow we're golfing in Uxbridge and then having an early dinner at Jeff's boss's farm/house.  Should be a nice weekend.  Not sure what's the plan for Sunday but I'm sure it'll be a good one.  I hope it is.  :) 

That's all for now.  Have a good weekend if I don't post before then.  :)

Oh update on my eyes - 3 years after Lasik and I still have 20/20 vision! Woooo!

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There are some days where I just feel so alone ..,.

Hump day....Almost the wknd kids

This evening we're headed off to my Mom's place to stay for a week and look after her two dogs.  She went to Barbados this morning and I hope she can enjoy herself and relax a bit and actually rest... it's something she hasn't been able to do in a very long time because of how things were with Oliver in the last year, year and a half.  She's been getting a lot of support from a Facebook group that she's in with and it's been quite literally amazing.

Why is that lately every Wednesday feels like a Thursday and every Thursday feels like a Friday?!  Change of seasons, maybe?  Every night though, I want to go home and crawl into a warm pair of pyjamas, grab a comforter and grab the dogs.  I do this every year though, I dread winter coming.  Not that I dislike the snow but I don't like the cold climate and go figure, I live here. :P

This Saturday we have a golf day and dinner out at Jeff's boss's place, which should be nice, since we have yet to go in the 3 years of Jeff working there.

Alex leaves us for out west next Monday.. Going to miss that fucker. We'll see how long he stays out there this time around.... LOL.  I wish all the best though, I do. 

As for drama around this neck of the woods, still reaching out and getting the same response: None.  Whatever.  I just maintain that Jeff and I are really good friends but simply put: don't take advantage of us or treat us like shit when we're there for you, it's insulting and rude and wrong.  The couple have still split but I think Jeff's friend still maintains hope that things will get better.  Well the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  It just doesn't work, it'll drive you mad.  And that's exactly what it's done. 

Ugh I've got the worst cramps ever and exercise isn't helping, like it normally does.  Blech. I know, too much information but hey, it's my blog.

I've got to run now but as usual, I'll be back. 

xo

Post in Pictures

Just a quick picture post because I don't have time to write until later or tomorrow.

Peace <3>

Oliver Twis - Age 10, born November 11, 2001

It is with great sadness that I say that Oliver has passed away and crossed over to the Rainbow Bridge.  Rest in peace sweet boy, you are loved dearly and you will be sorely missed.  xox

September 18, 2012

So today is defintely a better a day.  Although, I have to discuss one thing.  Anyone else find weird/strange things happening around you lately?  Or, if not lately, but this year in general?  For us, I think slowly but surely people have been losing their shit mentally... It's actually quite sad, considering both were very good friends of ours.  One was a long time coming, but it was a surprise when he freaked on considering that we'd bent over backwards to continue to be his friend, despite him treating everyone around like a taxi or just like plain shit.  And then the other, we didn't see coming whatsoever.  He met a girl and suddenly, or so it seemed to us, he began to unravel.  Now, whether he hid that "side" of him from us, I don't know, but I certainly don't "recognize" this guy anymore.  And we continue to be blame for things that are not our fault simply because he won't take any responsibility for himself and his actions, and he's just plain selfish.  How do you take a step back from something or someone when you don't want to or when you start to care about someone more than they actually do themselves? 

My pal, Olive, the Leonberger :)

Passed out. Vodka gimlets.  Nuff said. LOL

HAHAHHAH

That's all I really have time to write for now.  More later/tomorrow.  Peace :)

:S

I'm an asshole and I've been drinking and I'm not having a good night. The end. :( crazy how one second it's all good and the next, I'm getting freaked out on.. :( sigh

My Friday and Saturday in pictures

Petsitting clients, my boys, a sketch o jeff and I.

We had pulled pork and ribs and it was delish! Alex came down for a visit tho afternoon after doing some ambulance driving test.

This morning really felt like fall.. It was about 12 or so. Fog was rolling in the lower lying areas and the sun was just magnificent. :)

Gonna hop in the shower, go see my pugs one last time tonight and then come home and drink some vodka gimlets. :)

Xo

So I snapped..

I fell asleep on the couch, as per usual night routine and then woke up. Saw this awful angry face directing mad glares at me and I fucking went to bed. Im so sick of the dirty looks, the attitude, the up and downs... Im my perfect person but Jesus Christ, you're mad at me every single day and it's often the stupidest shit were arguing over. I told him I'm tired of this bullshit. I wish he would talk to me like he goes to his friends or see the joy or excitement in his voice or eye when he's telling a story. It seems like he's always miserable around me and me alone and im tired of feeling like in never good enough. And so I cried myself to sleep. The End.

Grr

I'd really love to know how and why I'm scrutinized over everything I say or do??? Why?!?!?

TIFF, stupid cancer, working out, etc.

Mares and I went to see Disconnect at TIFF yesterday and it was a really, really good movie that I'd highly recommend to everyone.  We ducked out at lunch and came back around 2:30.  What a nice way to break up the monotony of the day.

Then last night, my inlaws came over for dinner so we could chill with them a bit before they head down south for a few months again.

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Wow, I just found out that an old friend has cancer again... AGAIN.  And he's only 30.  This time, it's lung cancer.  I saw a picture of him at his brother's wedding on facebook and he looked sick so I sent him a message and lo and behold, he is sick.  Poor guy.  If anyone I know can beat that nasty shit, it's him.  He's the one nut wonder that had testicular cancer, don't worry, I say that with the most love as all his friends lovingly call him that. :) 

I just wanted to share my thoughts and views on the different yoga I practice.  I really like hatha, as it involves movement coordinated with breath, but I have to say, practising yoga during the day at the gym versus at night at Yoga Source are two very different things.  I feel like the day practice I do is more work and strength building, whereas at night, I feel it's more restorative, calming and makes me feel whole.  I always leave feeling fantastic, like I'm 10 feet tall. 

Today I sweat my ass off in spinning, but I think I'm going to cut back the days of spinning to one or two. Right now I'm spinning about 3-4 days a week, with one day combat training.  I feel like my ass is outgrowing my pants and thus I need to simmer down on the biking.  I need to include yoga more in my life right now as I feel like I need to be grounded more, I'm feeling a bit unsteady these days and it always helps with that.

This weekend is shaping up with regards to clients and pets I've got to visit.  The dogs are great, Jeff is good, he's continuing to bike almost every evening, one week biking as much as 90km!!!  I'm so proud of him and happy that he's out there, doing something for himself.

Anyways, gotta run to catch my train and clean the yoga studio this evening and then afterwards, grab the dogs and go for a walk with Miss Danielle.

Ciao bellas!
xo

9/11

So marks the day where many women, men and children perished in the World Trade Centre when it was attacked some 11 years ago.  Hard to believe that it has been that long since that day.  I remember being home that morning and I woke up and for whatever reason, stopped at CNN and was captivated for hours on end.  I remember thinking they were showing a preview for an upcoming movie, only the live camera shot of the plan crashing into the second tower.  It was utterly unbelieveable....there were no words to describe what was happened other than "holy shit" and "omygod" and "WTF!".

Many died in the tower, many burned alive, many lept to their deaths because they were scared shitless that help couldn't get to them.

Insane.  Time flies, doesn't it?  I'm thankful every day that we live in Canada and not the US.

Monday..............

It's Monday again, here we are again.  We had a good weekend, although argued some with J.  Hate arguing, hate tension, hate feeling like I'm walking around on egg shells and I hate feeling like I'm the worlds worst person... I feel like I'm going to fall apart at any given moment and it sucks so badly.  I hate complaining, I hate griping, I hate arguing but sometimes I feel like putting pen to paper so to speak helps me get things off my chest.  No one understands though.....It's frustrating.

The upside to the weekend, the boys got groomed on Friday and they look fabulous!

Saturday I was going to help out with a dog festival but that got rained out, it was AWFUL out, I ventured out around 3:45 pm and I literally carried the dogs through and was gone in a matter of 10 minutes.

Finally, a picture of YPPS, not all of us but some of us at the dog festival yesterday ...

Great people to work for, love my "part time job"...Not a job whatsoever.  Love it!

And yes, those are my pooches with booties on their feet.. It was mud central and there was no way I was getting them all muddy.  We even skipped the pooch plunge this year because they had JUST gotten groomed and I wasn't planning on spending some quality time in the shower with them this weekend. lol

This evening I'm cleaning at the yoga studio, I'll be going to yoga tomorrow night (need to start amping up my yoga practice again, I was benefitting from it immensely and I'm toning down the amount of spinning classes I'm going to because I feel like my ass is outgrowing some of my pants for god sakes.  Wednesday I'm going to see a movie at lunch with Marah at the Toronto International Film Festival and I'll wear my new dress that I bought last Friday.  Also, J's parents are coming over for dinner, it was supposed to be Friday, then moved to Thursday and now it's Wednesday they're coming by before they head down to Florida until December.  Thursday, cleaning at yoga studio and Friday and the rest of the weekend I've got dog and cat clients.  Another busy week and weekend ahead.

Toodles! xo

Flawless Friday? Yeah right, more like Frazzled Friday...

I've aptly titled this blog post because it couldn't be further from my reality.  I woke up late at 7:51 am.. immediately the brightness in the room let me know that I had slept in because it should have been still dark.  Jump out of bed in a panic, the last train is at 8:02 am so there's no bloody hope in hell I'm catching that bad boy, so I run around like a mad woman and call my mom, who's going to be leaving her place at 8:30 anyways to take my boys to the groomers and Mom comes and saves the day and drives me to the bus station.  Bonus, I got to see the boys before they went and get beautified.  It was so nice to see them too because I was by myself last night, no Jeff, no puppies and it was awfully quiet.

So the picture here is me on the bus looking like I still have cob webs in my eyes... lol

And then tonight, at the train my mom key me with my handsomely groomed devils :) I love how they look <3

J's coming home in a few hours and I've got two sucky bears so I'm out. Happy Friday night xo

Where did this year go?

I can't believe that it's September....where has the summer gone? Where has the year gone?

We're already mid-week, Wednesday here, and I'm at work, where else?

Seriously, I need to focus better because I've had this blog open all damn day and not written much at all.

Looking forward to this weekend, it's NewBARKet, a dog festival where we live and my pet sitting company has a booth there so I'll be helping out a bit with that on Saturday morning.  Then I'll bring my pooches back, all coiffed and fresh hair cuts from Maria's doing this Friday, then taking them swimming to close the Gorham pool for the season.  Fit some yoga in there, time with the hubby and that's my cup of tea. 

Next Tuesday, I'm going to see a movie at the Princess of Wales theater called To The Wander is Rachel McAdams and Ben Affleck.... Romcom.  I'll be deeking out of work early for that with Mares.  Also going to a yoga retreat in November with Mares too.  And possible another yoga session that sounds very Seane Corn-esque at the beginning of November too.

I'll post more tomorrow muchacho.
xo Peace

Picture diary of the long wknd this far..

Xo