A Reflection on 2014 and what 2015 has in store....

You know what's funny and ironic?  You spend much of your teenage years (well I know I did) wishing you were just a few years older, more grown up, "cooler"... Yeah well the years FLY by when you're older.  I found that once I was in the real world working a full time job after completing 2 college degrees back to back, the time just began to slip through my fingers and I think most people feel it.  I know it certainly doesn't help that us North Americans seem to live that go-go-go life and it fucking sucks pardon my French.  It is what it is, I guess, such is life....

Moving right along... today is December 31st, the last day of 2014. The year has been full of news and events, highs and lows and much to be learned and employed for a new year, a happy and healthy one.

I finished up my last work out of the year. We were allowed to leave work at noon so I did just that. Sweat, shower and change then haul ass to the train for an early ride home. I managed to use 75% of my Lululmelon gift card. I bought expensive ass laser cut wunder under crop pant (been eyeing then for awhile now but thought $102 was a bit much) and a top that was on sale but has a  laser cut-out on the back side of the calf and a tiny bit of mesh. I love te mesh pair they made a year or so ago but for the use I put my workout gear through, I didn't want to risk it and put a hole through them while just putting them on. So sexy but impractical for me when I sweat my ass off every day. Perhaps if I was going to the gym to get a bit of a glow as opposed to an actual good workout in. The top I purchased what grey and had the same laser-cut on the back of the tank. I'm happy with what I got :)

Came home, ran some errands, did the last trip to the grocery store since everything is closed tomorrow. Our friend  Bruce is over and I'm making dinner so other than that, a dog visit to my pal, Toby's later, I think it'll be a relatively chill night. You know you're old when.. Lol 

My sweet love Baxter 

Little Toby... My little insulin patient this evening.

I'm off work until Tuesday but work my petsitting job Friday night too Sunday night.

I'll be back somewhere in the middle of then.

Happy New Years and be safe!! 

Xoxo

Christmas in pictures

On our way to Jeff's parents up north, 3 hours north of where we live...

Yep, that is how I felt the majority of the last week, after indulging in way too much food goodness, aka being a god damn glutton. Bring on the stretchy pants and not eating. 

 

My in-laws' dog, Mugsy.

And the boys, home, after coming home from Nana's house.... Just plum-tuckered.  :)

Yesterday's final visit count tipped the scales at 1,890!!!  I have no idea what's that's all about and seeing what I'm at already today, I doubt today will be much of the same.  So strange.

I've got just a little under an hour left of my day at work and then I'll head over to the gym at Noon to get in my last work out until next Monday.  I'm going to have to do some shit at home over the holidays so I don't turn completely soft.

Tonight, Jeff and I will just hang out together (as we usually claim Christmas Eve as our own, to do our own thing, without having to drive anywhere or leave our place).  We'll open gifts for eachother and we'll also organize gifts for tomorrow morning, going to my mom's house, and then sort out everything going up north with us.  We have to pack a bag to head up north with, clothes and what not to survive in the deep north (kidding, not really lol).  Tonight I'll also brush the crap out of the boys so that they look like perfect little handsome boys tomorrow.  :) 

So in case I can't get to a PC before tomorrow or tomorrow, Merry Christmas and Best Wishes to you and yours.  I hope you all have a great one!!! xoxox

Hodge Podge Post

Holy shit, 1,146 views since I last logged in yesterday.  Something is awry?! My audience is never, ever quite that large...
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Anyways, just mailing out a last minute card this morning and getting a couple of little things for a stocking stuffer I'm doing for Jeff.. I figure why not, they're fun to open. 
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I was going to go to a 12 o'clock Body Pump class today but a co-worker offered to take me for some Thai food as thanks for coming in early for some hearings and going a bit above and beyond in terms of helping out where it's needed, especially in the last couple of months when it's been insanely busy.
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Lunch was DELISH and I'm so glad I went to the gym beforehand.  As you can see, I don't get out much.  My drink has an ice cube that lit up.  LOL

Okay we're at 1,873 hits today.  W T F is going on?!  Not that I'm complaining but that's not even close to the traffic I get on my page... Not even close.  I'm flabbergasted.  It's not even one blog post but it seems like a shit ton of the posts are getting viewed.  I have to be getting spambotted...Right?
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So I'm home now, the boys were thrilled to see Momma walking through the door.  :)  I managed to get a few stocking stuffers for Jeff but need a few more when I'm out tonight getting some dog food for the little boys.  They'll be staying at my Mom's house from Christmas Day to Sunday while we're up north at Jeff's parents visiting them.  There's actually SNOW up there (3 hours north of where we live - it looks all but spring here, everything has for the most part melted..) and we'll get to shoot some stuff at the range.. So it'll be good.  Speaking of guns, I'm finally getting my restricted/unrestricted license in January.  Tara's husband, Erik and I are spending a weekend doing it together; Tara already has hers and Jeff, too, of course).  January is going to be a BUSY month... I'm petsitting the weekend of January 3-4, Jeff's monthly match is the 10/11 weekend, my course is the next, then I swapped weekend with one of the other girls and working the 24/25 weekend and then the following weekend is Jeff's birthday.. weekend after that, another match of his.  Oh and we're house sitting at my mom's for 3 weeks beginning January 28th, puppy included.

Time to get off the computer, turn on the Christmas lights and wait for Jeff to get home from work (I came home a bit early today).

Ciao! xo

Meet Tallulah, My Mom's New Puppy (!!!)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Arguments with your significant other..

The moments after your argument... I just hate that sick, gutted feeling I have in the pit of my stomach.  We just had a horrible argument and things are always said that hurt us both, some that you can never take back.  And those are the worst....

I've been with Jeff for nearly 13 years... and whoever said relationships are easy are full of shit.  They're hard work.  We've had many bumps along the way and some days I feel like he'd be better off without me, that he'd be much happier with someone else.  Most of it is my own insecurities and the constant feeling like I'm just not good enough, nor will I ever be.  And when I get in my self deprecating moods, it can get really ugly and sad and hurtful.  I try to be the best person I can be and I know I can always be better, strive for better, more. I guess it just hurts hearing the truth sometimes and especially if it's coming from a loved one......

So far, this day has been brutal and I just want it to be over with......

Most people will be in and out at the office over the next two weeks, most out, but I am working, which is just fine because I've got some things I'd like to do without any interruptions.  Today we have my work Pot Luck and Dirty Santa Gift Exchange, which should be a good time.  I tweaked the time we start to accommodate me fitting in a Shred class at the gym in just over a half hour.  LOL.  Hey, when you're the planner, you can tweak times to accommodate yourself.  And I don't feel guilty one bit.  I ended up making meatballs (they're sooo good), and they always go over really well.

I got myself a new dress yesterday from Jacob, it's going out of business, so what would have normally been a $150 dress was $75.00.  SCORE.  It's gorgeous, black with grey leopard print. Last night Jeff wrapped the rest of the gifts that I hadn't done the night before, so really all we have left to get is the Bajan money for Brian, my step-dad and then a few gift cards for the nieces.

Looking forward to getting the shopping done this weekend, cleaning and watching some movies and catch up on some tv shows.  I'm finally in the festive spirit, our Christmas tree looks great, we have lights in our window and I'm just so excited to get Christmas started.  I love gift giving, and apart from all the anxious, grumpy assholes out there that try and ruin it for others, it's such a lovely time of year.

Here is the dress I got and another pic of my abs, because I'm quite proud of them lately.  LOL

 

 



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And now the Pot Luck is over and I feel super, duper full.  But I'm excited because tonight I get to meet my mom's new 9 week old Bichon she picked up this morning!!!

Happy Weekend and Merry Christmas!  I'll be back later this weekend or Monday.

 

Cheers!

I'm FINALLY finished Christmas shopping for Jeff!  What a relief.  I was stumped for the most part, he's just so difficult to buy for, but in the end, I think he'll be happy.  If not, well then fuck, he can return some it.  LOL.  We just now have to get gift cards for our two nieces, one who also happens to have a birthday on Christmas eve and for my step-dad, we're getting him some Bajan money for his Barbados trip at the end of January.  Yes, my mother is going away again. We get to look after Tallulah when they're gone and she'll be just about 4 months old. I can't wait to meet this sweet little lump of love, she finally comes home on Friday.  Jeff and my mom are going to pick her up. :)

Currently.....

I'm watching............. Million Dollar Listing LA

I'm Reading.....................Inside of a Dog: What Dogs See, Smell and Know by Alexandra Horowitz

Eating..............................Key Lime Greek Yogurt

Drinking..........................Water

Looking forward to...........Christmas

Feeling...............................Good, but tired and sore (my ass hurts from all the squats yesterday... TMI).

The Weekend and Stuff...

So I typed the below yesterday (Monday):

Why do I feel like I'm constantly this piece of shit human being that will never be good enough? Every time I have an argument with Jeff I go to the deepest, darkest place and literally cut myself down to shards?! It fucking sucks man.

Anyways... We were finally able to get most of the shopping out of the way, thank Christ. Hate crowds, hate the crazy  parking lots filled with angry people. 

Saturday night some pretty heavy shit went down.... Along the lines like my life could've taken a 180. So much to says I feel humbled and grateful.   

I didn't sleep Sunday, so if I'm not making much sense that's why. So exhausted I'm bordering delirium.

So on that note....

Old City Hall was looking pretty on Friday after work..

The CN Tower, just before boarding the train home, Friday as well.

My cuddlebum Charlie 

And here's a throwback to I would say....11 years ago.  Ah, young love. :)

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas....

So I finally erected and decorated our Christmas tree last Monday night.  I wanted to put it up before we were leaving to live at my mom's for a week starting this past Tuesday.  Since we're there til the 16th, I didn't want to come back home and do it then, I'd probably talk myself out of it because there would only be a few days left before Christmas and then I'd have to take it all down again.  I'm glad I did it when I did.  A bit laggy this year but whatevs, better late than never, right?!  Next comes the Christmas shopping.  Holy Hannah I am not looking forward to this.  I really, really hate shopping malls and I think it stems back to when I was 14 and worked at the mall.  I worked at the mall from about 14 to 18, always holding down 2-3 jobs at the same time (seems I still like to hold on to multiple jobs, although I don't consider pet sitting/dog walking a "job").  When you work at the mall and you get a break, you either: eat, shop or both.  AKA always spending money.  So it's evolved over the years that I just don't do malls and when I do, it might be a couple times a year, that's it.  And especially around Christmas, I cannot stand the hoards of people, grumpy/rude people and the never ending line ups.  I know, perspective, right?  So I just have to make some time to go out and do some shopping.  This year we've got Jeff's brother's kids, Jeff's Mom, my Mom and step dad, my Aunt, our friend Dina and then each other to buy for.  Jeff already got things for his Dad and brother, so we're good there. 

The problem, though, is that I'm stressed about what to Jeff every.single.year.  He's the kind of guy that if he needs or wants something, he's got it.  And couple that with the fact that we've been together for nearly 13 years (married 6) and I haven't a bloody clue what to get the guy.

Speaking of Jeff, he was so, so sweet yesterday evening.  So we ended up getting a behemoth of snow overnight Wednesday (see below) and into yesterday and he came to meet me at the train (since I've got my mom's car for a week) and helped me brush off her car.  Not only did he save me from doing, he helped some people that got stuck, brush off their cars.  That man is so incredibly sweet and selfless, he'll do just about anything for anyone without even so much as being asked.  I really need to stop and appreciate him more, he's just so sweet and thoughtful of others.


Work view, not as much snow as where I live but you get the gist.

By the time that I got home and he went on his merry way to get up north...

Monday, December 8, 2014

I didn't write much last week, simply because I was crazy busy at work and I was fighting a nasty bout of a cold/sore throat thing going around.  I blame it all on Jeff. LOL.  Couple being sick with waking up at 4:45 am every single day last week to come into work early and we've got an ugly situation on our hands.  I'm finally feeling a bit better today, but this past weekend, in between pet visits, I was coming home and resting or napping.  I was just so flat lined with zero energy.

My mom and step-dad are off to Holguin, Cuba tomorrow afternoon, so that means tomorrow we head over to her house to look after the dogs/house for a week, which means schlepping a ton of shit to her place so our life is seamless and we're not having to go back and forth.  And not a few days after she returns, she picks up her darling new puppy, Tallulah, a baby Bichon fluffball.  She's just so adorable.

So I think this post should be largely in picture.

Pretty awesome, right?  At least I think so.

 

 

My boys' Christmas Picture, incidentally, our Christmas card for friends and family, too.

And pictures from my weekend of pet sitting/dog walking:

 

 

 Just look at this Momma, Nellie.  She's 8 years old and such a ham.

 

 

  My pal, Quincy

 

 Ginnie and Whiskey

 

 

 Miss Mo'

 

 

 Roxanne & Maggie Mae (clearly, Rob Stewart fans in that household)