Saturday, December 20, 2014

Arguments with your significant other..

The moments after your argument... I just hate that sick, gutted feeling I have in the pit of my stomach.  We just had a horrible argument and things are always said that hurt us both, some that you can never take back.  And those are the worst....

I've been with Jeff for nearly 13 years... and whoever said relationships are easy are full of shit.  They're hard work.  We've had many bumps along the way and some days I feel like he'd be better off without me, that he'd be much happier with someone else.  Most of it is my own insecurities and the constant feeling like I'm just not good enough, nor will I ever be.  And when I get in my self deprecating moods, it can get really ugly and sad and hurtful.  I try to be the best person I can be and I know I can always be better, strive for better, more. I guess it just hurts hearing the truth sometimes and especially if it's coming from a loved one......

So far, this day has been brutal and I just want it to be over with......
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  1. Jade WrightDecember 22, 2014 at 7:58 AM

    I had my first blow out with Sam last week - it wasn't great at all but it is so necessary to fight occasionally, as long as it is for a good reason you know???

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